superego royal jelly is an electropop post industrial album by Ada Rook and ESPer99. this album is so fucking fantastic and i love it so much, it feels like a different world that i resonate with so much. this is one of my personal favorite ada rook projects and it's so special to me. this album is so so underrated i swear!!
this album feels like a home to me, it has succchh a good atmosphere and beautiful synths i wish i could get more of!! i feel like it encapsulates the feeling of not living in the right place so well. i connect to it closely, being that to me, it conveys the feeling of dissociating through a life you can't get through very well but having enough strength to keep going on you know? this album feels like being caged, trapped and alienated and living through pain for so long but having someone there with you. ..
superego royal jelly inspires me creatively, being exactly the type of music i want to make and having just the right atmosphere i want to have in the future.
my favorite tracks as of writing this are NOT COMING BACK, LOVER'S LANE, and GOODBYE HORSES. it's hard to pick favorite tracks for me cuz i love ALL OF THEM. but you know... the songwriting in this album is actually phenominal and it feels like a dream (dare i say a daydream.....) and sidenote GOODBYE HORSES is literally one of the best covers i've ever heard of anything ever. it's so pretty oh my god.
when i first listened to. this album, i remember being amazed at the first track daydream, with REALLY nice deep arpeggiating synths and they still make me JUMP UP AND DOWN OUGH the sounds of this album satisfy me so much i literally couldn't ask for more.. THAT WITH THE COMBINATION OF PIANO AND AND THE PITCHED DOWN BACKGROUND VOICES AHHHHHH!!!!
fun fact when i tried listening to music on this album at first was a couple years ago i really hated it because i first listened to YEARWOUNDS and i didn't like it i thought it was like. pop punk or whatever.. and never gave it a second chance later. but in context of the whole album and actually feeling what the atmosphere is I REALLY REALLY LOVE THAT SONG!! guitars so sillay...
anyways my conclusion is that YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO THIS ALBUM i know it's not for everyone but its so Special please.. you won't hear anything like it Please. this is my second favorite album right Now (first being parasite by ada rook.. hehe hohhoo.. i love ada rook so much but i will go into that more on that review.. and i will also talk about what makes the songwriting so special to me on this album that's on That one)
"it hasn't changed, the terror hasn't gone away
but when she's safe for a moment, she knows
she peels away a tiny piece of all the noise she's built up to survive
and it's so..." - YEARWOUNDS
"there isn't anything outside the terror
there is no comfort in the morning air
i'm safe here, i know
but i can't make the feeling go" - WIRES+BLOOD
"the movement in my chest, i can't explain
a frequency like death without any pain
my skin is held intact by the lightest wind
is this what it's like to be alive again?" - NATURE GIRL
"i step into the warmth and i'm not coming back
that place will take me and destroy all that i am
the vigilance and anxiety collapse
silhouette of my body into sand
i cannot feel the dread of memory when i'm there
barely real
the lightest touch through my hair" - NOT COMING BACK
"reflective chrome through the patchwork
bizmuth nails dig
as close to whole as we can get
saturated soul convulsing
child, crone, survival" - VOLTAIC